Have you fever felt like there should be more to your life, but you can't figure out what it is? I've been feeling like that for a while now. I feel like there's nothing that I can do to make things better for myself.
If somebody would have asked me 5 years ago what I thought I would be doing, this would be far from what I would have thought I would be doing. But I don't think that if everything didn't happen the way it did, I don't think that I would have found how much I love writing and how much it makes me happy to know that what I write affects people. In one of my stories the main character starts a band, so I sent like the first 2 chapters to a friend and because of that she decided that she was going to start a band.
I want to take college classes, but there's no way that I can do it now. I don't have the car to be able to go back and forth from classes. I really want to take classes to help with my writing because there's nothing more than I would like than to publish the book I've been working on actively for the last few months.
Sit And Wait
I picture his face
And my heart starts to race,
Is it bad
For one to get so sad?
There’s nothing wrong
For me to be so attached
To somebody that I long to see?
I see his face
And I fall apart,
What would happen
If I went over and talked to him?
To hear his voice,
Even if it’s just for him to yell.
I let him pass
Without saying a word,
But it’s killing me
Inside.
I need to let him know
That there is nothing
I want to hide.
I watch him walk away
When I couldn’t find
Anything to say,
Even though
I have so many things I’d like to say.
Should I call to him
And have him come back?
Then I sit there
Wondering if I should have done something,
Should I have tried
To make things right?
All the ‘if only’
And the ‘what if’s’
That are going through my head,
I don’t know where to turn.
It’s been years since
I could call him
And be completely truthful.
And what if I miss it?
What if I want to talk to him again?
What would he do if I say something next time?
Maybe I’ll just
Sit and wait.
